A Carrie Post

It has been especially obvious to me this past month that I may have trouble moving on. Moving on from the city I grew up in...friendships that fade...past mistakes. It's very interesting to me that I connect in this way to the outside because it doesn't always feel like I'm connecting, but guarding myself from making those connection. Seems like no matter how much I try, I adapt naturally to my environments, is this a bad thing? Yes, my relationships/friendships are meaningful this way, but it also can be very painful at the same time. Hm. If I accept myself as a "wear-my-heart-on-my-sleeve" kinda person, then how can I also keep my cards very close?

Is it bad to want to change a part of yourself you can't really change? *I totally felt like Carrie Bradshaw typing out that question.*